what women want...

I had an epiphany on Saturday night as I rode the J train troopin' it to a poppin house party in BK!!! 13stops!!! I would've entered this over the weekend but the mobile site hated me for some reason.

So a really cute trini boy and I had dinner and then an eye opening convo. A lesson I learned the hard way was that to avoid disappointment, one must not have expectations. Needless to say the many disappointments- romantic and not- I've experienced have been distasteful and at times hurtful, so I try to expect nothing.

Wellll I fucked up. Lol. What I came to realize through this conversation was that expectations are what help you determine whether this person is deserving or not. Some expectations society predetermined ages ago (like a man should open the door for a lady etc. etc) and others are to your liking (smart, well spoken, etc etc). It is almost like making sure the person is qualified for your love/time/attention. I guess I tried to not have expectations but I've always had standards/ qualifications.

So I do have certain things a potential luv interest must posses/do in order to obtain/hold my attention/interest. And I admit, those are expectations. So I was wrong. Yea, admitting to errors is something adults do.

You will know when you have not met my qualifications if you do not obtain the desired position.

Interestingly enough, I don't know what position I'm looking to fill. I'll spare explanation of that statement because somethings are better left unsaid.

I am happy. I feel like I've found clarification to a key element in this whole thing called life. Makes sense to me, what about u?