B who U r, not who U r expected 2 B

If I may, I'd like to comment on the plethora of life since my last entry.
Marriage: that's a scary fkn thing. The more we discuss it, the less inviting it becomes. Much of my investigation has led me to infidelity, constant up hill struggles, loveless unions, divorce, shadyness, and simply the unimaginable. You know, the stuff that NO ONE talks about. Only the fairytale bull shit is shared and we buy it. Do your research, you will be surprised, maybe disappointed, and even scared. Then again, I've always been a risk taker. Who knows...

Relationships: confusing shit. As humans, we posses an innate desire for companionship. As YO, I desire TRUE companionship- not necessarily marriage. Everyone has these fkn rules as to how healthy relationships should run; what he should do/be & what she should do/be. I say fuck it. If mental, physical, emotional or financial abuse is nonexistent and you are genuinely happy, fuck what you heard and move forward toward your happyness. Punto. I don't know where tomorrow will leave us, but I am happy @ my current stance, and I attribute that to the genuinely honest approach I've taken. I've surprised myself. You wouldn't believe me if I told you. I highly recommend you try explicit honesty, may be the key to your happyness.

Life: In retrospect of the relatively low key weekends I've lived recently-by low key I mean staying in watching movies and cleaning, or going to a friend's house to stay in and watch movies- I think, there's got to be something more.  Allow me to explain. I choose to do the aforementioned. There has got to be more to life than clubbin, drinking, going to lounges, poppin bottles. I want something else.  Granted, when the right wardrobe is acquired, the funds are right and the ambiance is perfect, the memory is priceless. It's been my experience that that is not always the case. And how many times can one possibly do that? I'm bored, not stimulated by such life, I want something more. Perhaps love?

As I continue to make strides on my financial, physical, emotional, professional and personal goals, summer 2010 is looking very low key. It bothered me a little, but what am I missing out on really? In foresight, it will be worth it. 

Kids: I fear for my kids. I'm in awe at the "kids" I see on my way to work. Middle school "kids" with fully developed bodies and raging hormones. "Kids" that never have a bad wardrobe day. I have an idea of what values I'd like to teach my offspring. I pray for the strength and wisdom to raise relatively normal children that don't resent me in their adulthood.Good luck to you too.

Religion: maybe I need organized God? Its worked for some people.

Yes, its been a long time since I've entered a new post.

You see, I write because I get to express thoughts that typically won't make it to ears. Lately, I have been blessed with a very insightful audience. I also find myself in very interesting moods. Moods that range from desiring complete solitude to yearning for personal interaction and long conversations. Frequently, that drastic and instant.

I interpret that as a direct result of my reality. If you only knew.

Anywho, I'll try to be more consistent with the entries, and thank you for trying to understand this thing we insist on over complicating called life along with me . Remember, crack is wack.

Besos

In My Mind...walk with me...

C'mon, ease on down the road in my brain. You're the guest star in the cinematographic off spring of...

Dr. Seuss, Che Guevara, Bob Marley, Bikram Choudhury, John Leguizamo, Juan Luis Guerra, Alaine, Erykah Badu, Tim Burton, and Paulo Freire...

What a wonderful stroll that would be...

Thanks DJ for the title

Get Your Priorities Straight Society!

Critical thinking, a skill that is taught early in our public school education, is one that should continue to develop throughout our lives.  As a person that enjoys critical thinking and making others think critically, I show you some facts about the Olympics and the World Cup you may have not known. Eventually, you will make a decision about supporting events that have these types of impacts on communities and our global society.

2010 Olympics



World Cup- South Africa


The way I see it, our society needs its to do list redone asap.

Wake UP!

Just Curious

I wonder if this is the life my mother saw for herself. 

I wonder if her daydreams at 24 are long forgotten at 54.

I wonder if I'm what she imagined.

I wonder if my children will ask these questions; I wonder about my responses.

........

clear

   
                        [defibrillator noise]... 

 
{in foggy white place...searches for familiarity..sees silhouette}...

Poverty Prevails despite the abundance of wealth...

This isn't going to be a happy one friends.

In actuality, it will be an angry entry.

I am angry that members of society can dish out approximately $1.3 billion to construct an unnecessarily new Yankee Stadium, of which $220 million were public monies from the City of New York for stupid ish like parking facilities ($75 million), parkland along the waterfront ($135 million) and other work related to the stadium. WAIT, there's more! The project also received approximately $1.1 billion of private financing from the Yankees.

While the big bucks are poured over such important things, education, health care, hunger, and housing have long gone ignored both locally, in the great City of New York, and internationally like countries such as Haiti.For example,

I mean, compared to the $1.3 billion spent on a stadium, only $194 million is needed to provide adequate services to 400,000 New Yorkers who live in NYCHA housing.

Its sickening that Haiti has been one of the poorest countries, if not THE poorest country in the western hemisphere for years and it took a catastrophe to turn the world's attention to it. Granted, 1.3 billion isn't nearly enough to repair the mess we created in this world, but it would sure help!

I'm angry that "third world countries" and homeless people simultaneously exist in such an affluent world. It just does not make sense. 

As a society, we have our priorities ALLLL WRONG, and even worse, its accepted.

Its overwhelmingly disappointing how individualistic we can be.

I pray for the wisdom, patience and strength to help change it.

-In solidarity....
Yo.

mariposas...

and the countdown begins...

Blue Monarch Butterfly, one of the few insects that migrates over two thousand miles...unique and a free spirit...like me :)