I still have faith geunine people exist.

During the recent evaluation of my life, the impact of the things I encounter as a social worker has been greater. How people act toward one another is something I've been closely observing.

I deal with peoples problems. Plain and simple. Recently, the problems of the people I've been helping have been perpetuated by other people. People with ill intentions. Mean people. Straight up assholes. for instance:

A person and her family almost got evicted (aka became homeless) because a welfare administrator incorrectly entered data into her program, would not speak with the person or return any of my phone calls. The problem was solved and expedited as soon as I got her boss on the phone. So you mean to tell me that an easy phone conversation could have prevented a family from homelessness and you intentionally are not doing your job because of reasons unknown to me? What if the lady did not know to resort to me?

Daughter takes mothers contact information, opens countless credit cards and maxes them out. Mom is on SSI, meaning a fixed income. Daughter doesn't pay debt back and mom picks up cans in the street to be able to do so.

Mom verbally abuses teen child, making sure to include the bit about the teen being worthless daily.

or on a more basic level: girl that likes single guy sabotages single guy's interaction with other girls. people who blatantly overcharge for basic goods. teachers who don't give a crap.

My point? There are just mean people in this world. Mean people breed cruelty. Very few people are genuine these days. What do mean people get out of ruing or interfering a life? Rapists, killers, kidnappers, torturers, home wreckers...etc etc. It's scary, really. Just watch a few episodes on the investigation channel of 48 hours evidence, captured and many more.

Unfortunately, the more you know the more you fear. sometimes ignorance is bliss. for example, before I interned at a pediatrics ward for a hospital and I was ignorant to of baby illnesses. So I had little or no worries for babies. Then my sister gave birth when I was there and I was aware of sudden infant death syndrome, jaundice, malnutrition, wooping cough and the many other ailments newborns suffer. At the sound of a sneeze I was evaluating my nephew and borderline paranoid of what the baby might have fearing the worse.

Makes me wonder if I've played the role of mean person or obstacle to a person in need. I hope not. This is not to say that I am the nicest person. Life has definitely hardened my heart throughout the years. Just scary to realize what my kids will face, hopefully I'm present, capable and sane enough to soften the blow.

Treat each other good, its good for the soul.
Jez