wild thannnng

pero mundo del blooooogggeooo?!!!!

que abandonado te tengo!

Never! I have just been working like a slave, which is nothing new- my apologies!

WOW, so many realizations, so much growth...alll amidst all of the mayhem.

no tears...smiles alllll day - *pats on back.

my mind has been in all corners of the emotional grid and has reached all ends of the spectrum in terms of intensity.

recently I've been disgusted at complacency our society has demonstrated SMH @ you society. condoning our bad habits and turning your cheek on community organizing and civic participation. wagg of the finger to your wackness!

when i was in grad school people would get sick of my conspiracy theories and social commentary. and i became complacent to not annoy them. well u know wat i tell them. WTFU (wake the fahk up). while u hush me to get your daily dose of perez hilton, people are loosing their homes, jobs and employment.

How about we stop being so individualistic and act like a community? In the end we will all be old, senial in senior citizen centers thinking back on the shouldaswouldas couldas. How about we prevent that?

*oooooh I'm riled up friends. I've been reading/watching/talking/growing...so prepare this blog to embrace "Eta que ta qui's" more...crazy radical side. I've controlled it for far too long and I pride myself on being able to challenge the status quo because its so easy to go with it.
I wannnnnnaaaa beeeee freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

eta que ta qui es una Wild Thang!

y pol q

Do we spend too much time in a virtual world and not enough time with each other?

cheese!!!

ok, ok smile is back people.

MO tank: 1/4 filled, idk how, but it happened.

we gon' make it work. we got dis!

:)

i esmiling now. :)

gone...

it left.

slipped away.

se fue.


no no, i speak of no man....gimme some credit.

i speak of my MO. its gone. raise and all...its far away. i hope i get a hold of it soon because...this is not good...i've been pretty full on MO for a while and all of a sudden its like i took my can o' MO and spilled its contents in a rage of insanity.

kinda tired of faking the funk really.

im certain ill find it. who knows...

...cambio y fuera

its been done

i broke his heart in the worst of ways...through text. i know, i know, but his desire for me was overwhelming and there was no room for the conversation. You alll know what I'm talking about! I also didn't have it in me to be so cruel. i had to let him know tho...and i did. i refuse to lead anyone on. fthat. i hope we can talk about it when he's ready because he's a good guy.

otherwise...let the healing continue.

im out!

ps... I GET IT!

Jade breakes hearts...

The following is something that's been gnawing @ my conscious for a long time.

There's a man that has gone above and beyond to show me that I am a woman he respects, appreciates and admires. Like several others, he's interested in me romantically, and amongst other things, he...

* Has always been a gentleman in EVERY sense of the word, from opening the door to paying for expensive dates.
* Has driven hours to share a few moments of my day.
* Pays attention to detail
* Is selfless-displayed via words and actions
* Has impeccable text/calls/email/FB etiquette
* Owns his own business
* Is clear about his intentions with me

And yet, I cannot correspond him and others that have tried. Unlike myself, I barely acknowledge his courting attempts. I've treated this man with the same treatment I've received from men that are just not into me. He does not deserve it. He is a fantastic man and I'm sorry for adopting the very despicable behavior onto this person. Not returning calls/texes, having excuses for not being able to hang etc etc, all in hopes that he would get the hint. I feel extra bad because my learned behavior has failed to send the "I'm not into you" message and so I've taken the passive aggressive route men have taken with me. And that sucks, because as a person that preaches "bluntness and honesty (which I'm typically good at)" I haven't been either, and now understand.

I never meant to hurt this person and understand that he's an amazing guy. The "it" factor is just missing. In an attempt to spare his feelings, I haven't been upfront with him-ah I get it! I understand why men might have acted the way they have with me (light bulb!). Unlike the many men that have done this to me, I also know wat it feels like and know that its NOT fun to be ignored and unresponded, to justify the non-returned texes and confusing behavior, in hopes that one day that persons actions will eventually change. The truth is, they won't. I won't magically start liking this person.

With that said, I will owe it to tell him and will. I will not be like the men I've dated. I'm better than that and this person with emotions deserves better. Now, we can both move forward.

Women are so complicated. Here I have what sounds like the perfect man and yet I can't bring myself to like him. Sucks because the people I've shown interest in don't size up to the many men I've turned down. Ah, in a perfect world. At least I know my worth.

goes both ways this time...ahhh la vida.
Ciao...besos

Oops, I did it again!

Yep I did it again. Ignored my intuition, let my guard down and I let it happen..again. Obvious development since the last incident is noticeable and it'd been a while but yep these things are inevitable.

"Dame tu querer que solo quiero enamorarte, no te quiero herir solo quiero acarisiarte."- Luis Vargas (if I'm not mistaken).

How literal, and yet, ilegible. I think this session of hooked on phonics stuk and now I can read! :p No crashing and burning this time *does happy dance.

Ahhh and that's the end of that because as soon as I started writing this blog my day took a turn for the best. Went to a Yankee's game, in great seats and with good looking company ;) and then just when I decided was going home knowing that my family lived close by and that I should pay a visit, I took the wrong train. A divine sign that I should spend some much needed family time. And so I followed my omen and went to mi familia. Ahhhhh! Nothing like remembering that you are 'loved' no matter how little you interact with your relatives.

Ahhh thank you higher being. Seriosoooooooo :) (seriously itwontmakesense style )

So many changes to make...mojo quest reaching its climax.

We'll be right back!
-yea mon