A right after 3 left turns

Salutations mi GENTE!

En vivo y presente! Wow, what a weekend. I'll spare the details but intense work outs, me peine, work, then lots o' play!

First a point of clarification, contrary to most normal people in 2009, i dont have a desktop or laptop @ home which is why I dont blog during the weekends- not because i dont want to. I can do it from my blackberry but its annoying.

Secondly, i enjoy weekends so much because im 23 and work like a burrito sabanero. i must admit, im a workaholic because i have goals, but also because i am the head of household and wouldnt forgive myself if my parents suffered the consequences of my irresponsibility.

so may thoughts this weekend but recently i've been coming BACK. what i mean is that i went from being a total extrovert in HS to painfully shy the first half of college to slowly comin back to my old self. I went from talkin to strangers to barely replying greetings from random people. Still havent figured out y tho. I've got people to thank for bringing me back, but my dj is admirably outgoing and people flock to her. its so easy to become extrovert around her, so she brings me back to my element- thanks. I really needed that because i dont like so damn shy. it doesnt mean im as outgoing as she, thats all her. :)

made me realize how shut off we are from each other as people. i mean, i sit on the train with my eyes glued to a book/magazine/newsletter/blackberry/newspaper/advertisement/

anythingthatwillavoideyecontactwithanotherperson and my ipod blasting hoping noone bothers me. I think noone is interested in talkin and i want to avoid ANY uncomfortable situation. But then one day my ipod died and i couldnt fit my book into my purse so i was naked from my shield. And people smiled at me, talked to me and one guy even kicked it to me (didn't meet the preliminary convo 100 tho, so no digits 4 him).

this was amazing! new yorkers aren't necessarily nasty people, they just aren't given the chance to talk. so i started just reading instead of listening to music simultaneously, or doing neither to test my little theory. and it worked. people wanna talk. amazing.

interestingly enough, i didn't. lol. im so used to selfishly using the rides on the train/buses to meditate, jam, unwind, or read that i actually look forward to it. people wanna talk alright, about themselves. lol. one lady told me about her trip to florida, her sons wife, her shopping spree. Come on lady, this book was getting really interesting!!!!!! Or another lady wanted to talk about her problems, im sorry, here's my card and make an appointment. I literally deal with too many problems a day, peidon sra. im just being honest...im sure one day ill have a crazy convo like the one i had with this lady on the way back from pr one time, thats for another blog tho.

i guess it says a lot when u debreif on an NYC subway train...

i guess i made three left turns and limited myself to my insecurities. u can place urself in many boxes and i dont know how, but i was a victim of wackness. life transitions do amazing things to people and i finally made a right turn and began enjoying life outside that box. De La Vega could not have said it better- "There's a lot more going on outside the box," and I enjoy that.

Make your right turn people :)

We'll be right back! -Me