pao pao

yaooooooo mi gente!

So, I've been doing a lot of thinking, probably way too much, but I've had many many revelations lately that i hope to expand on in separate entries.

pero before i forget:

I had a convo with a friend in regards to marriage. My position: if two people are committed to each other why do they need a religious ceremony, performed by a nongodly mortal, to confirm that? His response: ceremonies serve a purpose. Initially, I was like yea, whatever, many people who take the plunge in a religious ceremony end up in another ceremony: divorce. But then it dawned on me...he is right. We shall be expanding on this later on, but think about this one.

I was an emotional wreck last week, but the emotion I felt the most was anger. I need to resume to working out before I loose friends due to my smart impulsive mouth. It cracks me up how impulsive I can be. I be doing some crazy ish man...tengo que tener cuidado.

Sex and double standards...I can write a whole book on that one. Lets just say I am surprisingly happy where I'm at. Giggety!

So I saw someones facebook status and, although it was a joke, i found his comment to be borderline offensive. I decided to send this person a private message and shared why I thought his comment should be thought over. I seriously contemplated about sending this message and after sending it, spoke it over with a few friends.

One friend: it was a joke, you are being to sensitive, i thought you believed in free speech

my response: are we too apathetic? are we enabling the man?

My thoughts: he's a smart man, if he's as smart as I think, he won't get offended, he'll just think about what effect his words have on people.

Second friend: true true.

Sensitive or not, as a socially conscious person, I wanted to make this person think. I am happy to report that this person received the message intelligently and my anti oppression task was complete. The work is life long. I think we let too many things slide by, but that's the society we live in, I choose to challenge the status quo any chance I get. I will not continue to enable people's dumb thoughts, not when they claim to be intelligent. I am proud of myself and will continue to urge people to shut up and talk.

& finally, I have had lots of time face the reality that I have come into with age. As I have gotten older, my cross has only gotten heavier. The new plight I have taken on: FACING it. For a few years I've been in denial about some one's addiction problem responsible for my reality today. I have finally the courgae to face it. Thankfully, I am the way I am, otherwise this battle would have beaten me a long time ago. I am happy I am individually strong. Now I have to complete going through the motions so I may begin forgiving. I have faith I will one day, for now, anger is what I feel. I'm not worried of permanency, I've never been an angry person.

I love you because you have never stopped being a genuine friend or wrong about anyone. PaoPao to me for being hopeful. Sometimes the proof is right in your face and its still hard for you to see. Lesson learned: learn from new experiences and people in life but always know yourself more. For your trust, the test should be much more critical, that way you are not disappointed when you have been failed.

I've learned to have no expectations and cant help that I get soft from time to time. SMH @ me. Just a little reminder course its all. Noted.

You cannot fake intelligence.

Interesting what is important to people. Do you know what is truly important to you?

Everything happens for a reason, seriooosoooooooooo!

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