passion-less

A person I am helping said "continue to fight, don't loose the passion." Consequently, I was reminded of a question someone asked me years ago, they asked what my goal in life was, and I responded: to have a passion.

Passion to me is something that effortlessly wakes you up every morning. It's something you have an intense emotion for and you enjoy, eat, breathe, sleep it. Passion...it fuels your soul and ultimately your life. (corny? yes, and how would you describe it?). Unconditional love towards your purpose. Thanks DeLaVega...again...

And yet, at 23, I remain passion-less. I know what interests and excites me. And that's just not enough. I know that while I like my job, I yearn for days that I am not working. What's the one thing that moves my soul? For example, I know people that are passionate about poetry, writing, singing, dancing, journalism, shoes, clothing, furniture, the Internet, religion, children, plants, water, medicine, etc etc. People that don't just dabble in their interest, but live in their passion. What about meeee? IDK. Really.

I think this is going to be a lifelong search until I find it. So far the only thing that I really enjoy doing is helping people. The problem is, the amount of people I've been able to impact has not quenched my thirst to help (refer to post titled "I'm sorry, but there's nothing I can do" from January) . It's like a person that has been lost in the desert and finds a bottle of water with 1 drop in it. A teaser. Enough to drive a person mad.

I have faith that I will find it. I want to be passionate so that I don't look back one day and regret what I did with my life. So far I'm doing good. Wish me luck.

Paz.